Another cruel gift from the gremlin himself, then; to deny you an end to your suffering just to punish; to allow you to return to seek your deserved vengeance from me. He would have known the depth of your hatred for me at the end.
You speak as if I had a choice; as if you weren't there the night I was forcibly taken from our room. I think I have mourned you every night since.
Then pick it up! You lament over a life you cannot return to. Embrace the one you have.
Do you use terms of endearment to mock me? If I'm just a mad man raving to a ghost, then I'm afraid you won't get much satisfaction haunting me.
You read it! You don't like that I included you? I never thought-
If I had known, I would have sent you a signed copy.
[Deflecting is easier than facing the maelstrom of emotions threatening to pull him down into the depths at the simple realization that Nicki read his story.]
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devilsfiddler) wrote2016-12-30 02:21 am
no worries!
You speak as if I had a choice; as if you weren't there the night I was forcibly taken from our room. I think I have mourned you every night since.
Then pick it up! You lament over a life you cannot return to. Embrace the one you have.
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I will.
Somehow, Lelio, I find myself relieved you're as lost and full of rage as I am.
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Perhaps we will always be a pair of lost children. But I don't think our rage is alike. Then again, rage never suited either of us very well.
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Am I a fool to entertain the notion that our next conversation might center on the concept of rage and how ours might never quite compare?
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My beloved Nicki, we could speak for an eternity about the ways we might never quite compare. I'll entertain the notion.
I wish I could see you. To know you're not a ghost and that I'm not going completely mad.
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And do please tell me you won't be writing a new narrative for publication that includes me in it. Your first book was more than enough.
[Yeah, but he was in line to buy the first copy, wasn't he?]
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You read it! You don't like that I included you? I never thought-
If I had known, I would have sent you a signed copy.
[Deflecting is easier than facing the maelstrom of emotions threatening to pull him down into the depths at the simple realization that Nicki read his story.]